Saturday, October 14, 2006
Sorry, I can't blog about what happened yesterday till sometime later. And I'm NOT feeling jealous now. I guess. So what if I am. It doesn't make any difference right ? It doesnt matter right ? I don't care. I really don't. I can't care.
I WILL NOT CARE.
Haha. I'll try. Didnt went cell today. Yes, I didnt. PIG, uh whatever. I know I love those kiddos of mine. Fantasy. Whatever ! It is not. It's just our dreams. It ain't stupid. At least we dont think it was. At least I enjoyed every single little moments with them, not him (: At least I would love them till& to the very end. At least I know they will be forever mine. At least I know they will be always there. Till the very end. They always know.
And where's Cherlyn ? Gosh. I miss that girl of mine. I just can't wait to tell her everything. She would understand. I guess she would. I wont be going service tomorrow. I think I'm off for tuition. I would rather occupy myself with my studies than THAT. Oh, that's totally dumb.
But I can't wait to meet up with those church kiddos ! Like JiaJian Daddy, my HOT&SEXY tutor Tan ChoonKiat. My kukuhead, IvyHo.
I wouldnt love like there's only love. Or the last love. My First Love is greater. You are the dumbest of the dumbest ! Haha. No, not you. We. Oh, that's really dumb. I miss them. Those dearies.
When school holidays starts, I would spend every single day with them. I would rather occupy myself with other things, such as enjoying. And not pondering. I rather not think too much. Haha. That's how life should be& how life should go on !
My life wont be a saddistic one. It would be something that I will enjoy. And most importantly, it would be exciting. Haha. And I can't wait to watch Princess Hours with YanYee ! Wheeees. Going underage parties with darlings. Checking out whether Ministry Of Sound have them this holiday. At least, those parties would be enjoyable I guess. It should be. It will be full of life ! And, not lies definitely.
Had been reading Chicken Soup this few days. And, I'm coming to the end of the book. I'm glad I am able to understand many many things. Such as knowing what's right from wrong. How people goes through their life. And, haha. Mine, would be just as great. I have those people I need in my life. (: They are enough for me. I'm satisfy. I wouldnt know. Or I wouldnt want to know anything that has got to do with you. Perhaps that's the only way out. I play it easy. (: Nah, I don't like you. Too flirtious ? Haha. I dont know. I call it, no life.
I dont care what you are going to think of me. Haha. At least I think I wouldnt care. Last year was a last year thing. And, I'm just annoyed by those actions of yours this time. Haha. And you with those group of people. Oh wells, whatever it was. Whatever was it. I dont give a damn now. Since I got everything I needed ! (:
To know, they will always be there.
To know, you are not there. Not at all.
To know, not to hold on, just watch from afar.
To know, I need my first love.
To know, life has much more meaningful things than just you.
To know, I control my own life, not you.
To know, I have much more important things to know.
To know, I still love my first love.
To know, there's a distance between us.
To know, it was just my thoughts.
Just to know, and to end, with a randomly,
I love you still baby ! (:
5:58 PM
