Wednesday, September 27, 2006
What happened today was terrible. Even the IT teacher said I could go into depression. This is what happened.
Samuel asked me if I was going to visit Abel with him later.
me : erms, I dont know. How is he ?
him : his father messaged me &said he now in coma, we are visiting him later in the hospital.
me : HUH ?! Are you serious ? Is he alright ? { tears drop }
him : yeah ! Just now I messaged him. Then his father replied &say.
me : WHAT THE HELL. OH MY GOSH. IS HE GOING TO DIE ?
him : he is in coma now.
vivien : { silence, tears }
me : { crying }
jiaqi : really ? { eyes red }
khairul : I call him now.
{ phone rang }
khairul : jolene, his sister is on the line. You talk to her.
me : { taking the phone } Hello, is Abel alright ? Where is he ?
anna ( his sister ) : he is in the hospital.
me : { CRY &CRY } i dont want to hear anymore !
lynn : { answer the phone } HELLO ? HELLO HELLO.
vivien : { answer the phone } how's abel ?
anna : in the hospital
- we cried. The girls. My girls.
Teacher came out, she talked to me and said, ' he is fine. he will be fine. nothing will happen to him. if this goes on, you will get depression easily. think first. dont waste your tears. '
The door of the lab opens, Lynn stands there. ' JOLENE. IT'S FAKE '
And I was like, WHAT THE HELL. WHY ON EARTH DID YOU LIE TO ME ?! I WAS AFRAID. YES. DEATH. I WAS AFRAID.
And besides, Abel mastermined everything. He told them to lie to me. How could he ? Though Victor didnt came to school today. But he was like so nice?
I was damn pissed today. And I complained to Victor. He was like, IGNORE THEM. And I'm like, YOUR BESTFRIEND IS THE MASTERMINE. And he helped Abel to speak. What the hell man !
And during English class, Wilson threw something at me. WHAT THE HELL. And I blame JingGuo. And made JingGuo angry, I'm so so so sorry JingGuo.
And then, thos bastards, CheeHwee &Wilson starts to say, ' we are helping Abel to get his loss back. You can't replace Abel. '
HELLO, THEY SAID MANY MANY TIMES. YOU KNOW HOW PISSED I WAS THAT I TURNED AWAY. I'M ZOD DAMN IT PISS IF YOU DONT KNOW.
ZhiJie didnt said me. ONLY THEM. Fuck it. I'm sorry I'm using vulgarities as I am really pissed off man !
And worst, Abel still played with me. Damn ! Perhaps he had a head concussion &it hurts too badly that he couldnt think of something better to play. And that the doctor gave him a day of MC, and that he was just too bored& decided to play me. Okays. I was really angry. VERY.
Abel later messaged Khairul &Khairul showed me the message.
After IT class, he called me to apologise. Oh, it didnt really helped. I can't seem to forget about it. Too pissed.
I scored 14.5 for my Mathematics test ! DAMN. Alrights. I'm too pissed. During IT those people beside me was DOTA-ing. It's -.- YEAH.
Abel just messaged me to apologise. OH YOU CHEAT MY FEELINGS. I DONT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. AND I'M BEING BLAMED FOR LIKE EVERYTHING. ABEL LIM. CAN YOU BELIEVE WHAT THOSE BASTARD SAID ABOUT ME. YOU THINK I CAN TAKE IT. THEY CONDEMED ME. OH FUCK.
AND PEOPLE. GO READ CHEEHWEE'S BLOG. THAT BASTARD INDIRECTLY SCOLDED ME. OH FUCK. YOU HAVENT GOT ENOUGH. THEN WHAT ABOUT HER LOSS ?!?! WHAT RIGHTS DO YOU HAVE TO CONDEM ME. NO ONE CAN REPLACE OTHERS. DONT YOU GET IT. I KNOW I CANT REPLACED HIM. YOU SOUND AS IF HE HAS DIED. WHAT THE HELL. I'M TELLING YOU HE HAVE NOT DIED. AND HE IS NOT IN ANY BUNK. DONT VISIT HIM. HE DONT NEED YOUR VISIT. HE IS AT HOME. NOT HOSPITAL. WHAT A GOOD FRIEND YOU ARE WHEN YOU DONT EVEN KNOW. SOME GIRL HUH ! SAYING ME LA. WHAT NOT JUST PUT. ' SOME PEOPLE LIKE JOLENE ANG, JUST WONT STOP PLAYING FOR A LITTLE.' PUT MY NAME LAAAAA ! YOU DONT HAVE TO PUT SOME GIRL. NO BALLS. JUST PUT AND WRITE BIG, JOLENE ANG HURT ABEL LIM. I DONT GIVE A FUCK MAN ! YOU STARTED EVERYTHING. GETTING HIS LOSS. GO AHEAD. I DONT CARE, NOT AT ALL. COULDNT BOTHER WOULDNT BOTHER. I JUST KNOW YOU SUCK TO THAT EXTEND. NO BALLS. SHAMELESS. YOU AINT A GUY MAN. WE ALL HATE YOU. I JUST HATE YOU TO THAT EXTEND. YOU SCOLDED ME. I SHALL SCOLD YOU BACK. DANG.
I apologised for those vulgarities. I'm mad at him. And so, yeah. (:
After him, many many things suddenly fall. I dont know why. I need him ? Maybe ? I dont care.
Waiting for that happiness. Still.
I love you, you stupid hardcore gay ! Haha !
STRAWBERRY ; JELLYBEAN/
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