Wednesday, September 20, 2006
I'm suffering. Suffering inside. I suspect I'm having depression. Not only me. Andy is suffering too.
Anyway, I shall say my day first. They made me feel like a princess today. Thanks girls. Tian Shi Yi Tian has been postponed to after exams. I don't know lahs. We are just so busy. Oh, okays. Still, I guess I'm excited.
MissKoh didnt come to school today :(
PE today was netball. TwoNine together again. Khairul acciddentally hit JingGuo with the ball, and guess what. His spects broke into two. He was like fucking angry lahs. And scolding vulgarities. :( And Khairul really accidentally de. I don't want anything to happen. If not I'll hate YOU for life. I meant it. YOU, not you.
Mother Tongue. I didnt bring my book. So the test, I don't know anything.
So I copied. It was hard. So we resorted to cheating. Haha. Lynn, Abel and me. I did see VivienT's answers too. Some I answered myself can. I don't know but Abel laughed at me when I stretched my hand to take for Wilson's book. Wilson was sleeping what. Then I go take lorhs. I also no book can. That's why must take. But I think its a sure fail thing.
Mathematics. I UNDERSTOOD everything in today's lesson. I'm working hard for Friday's test. Victor&Abel, against, Jolene&JiaQi&Sheryl&SiHui&PohLing&Rebecca&VivienPhua.
Betting on chocolates. We will take the mean of the results. Abel is nice, he smsed me to tell me &to remind me to study for it. But that stupid sms dashed my hopes. I thought it was Sweet. And it was Abel Lim, that reminder.
English. We were busy betting. No one. NO ONE was paying any attention to Miss Yong. I miss Miss Low.
After school, went Library. Went to 126 later.
I shouldn't had go in the first place. They lead their own life. I lead mine. And perhaps I shouldn't had listened to Xavier in the first place. Things are getting tough for me. I should have when for my Romeo&Juliet today. I SHOULD HAVE. And if I hadn't, I should have went home to study after lunch. Fuck it man. And it was like, whatever la, I'm feeling fuck up.
I don't even think we should be friends. I mean, yeah, you are someone important in my life. You USED to, but now, I don't think so. Perhaps you are just some, nobody. I don't know. But that's what I guess so. Last time you were, but now, I really doubt it. You lead a COMPLICATED life. I don't think I'm leading a complicated life. I have my goals, my dreams, and I do aim. I doubt you do :(
Just so different.
And I have those people around me (: My dearest friends. Suppose to call Andy, but I guess he's playing basketball. Awwww. He told me to call him when I reached home. He is suppose to talked to me. And calm me down. Cause we are in the same boat. He hasn't answered his phone.
And ChengHao is entertaining me. He asked me to call him so he could talked to me. What a nice friend. But oh wells, I think he won't understand cause I don't understand as well :( But anyway, thanks MengNan, I'm calling him this for the first time. Since he helped me quite a lot. He did a lot of cheering. Trying to be a counsellor.(: Thanks.
And I'm talking to Cherlyn online too. She is also in the same boat as Andy and me (: There's someone else. We got to face it together. And I know, there's still God. I think I need You more than I ever do.
I LOVE YOU GIRL. Thanks for everything (:
I love Pan&Liau too, for accompanying me xD
I will listen in future.
I think I'm missing Sweet.
I think, I guess.
5:27 PM
